Sorry I have not written to you in a long time. I always write such lengthy messages to you because I miss you so much and sometimes I feel that I might be embarrassing you.
I love you baby and will never forget you. I think about you everyday. Whatever I do reminds me of you.
I think I am getting better. I least I no longer hate everyone. The "boys" have come over twice in the last few months for a barbecue. They paid for everything. I mean everything (paper plates, plastic ware, condiments, beverages, all kinds of dips and appetizers, main courses and even cleaned everything up) Pretty awesome considering they should know we always have a stock of those things)
Both barbeques were awesome. You would have had so much fun. Maybe you were watching.
You have the best friends. It makes me feel so proud and blessed that your friends keep in contact, come over and know they are welcome to come over and barbecue or hangout anytime.
I really miss you. I never thought I would every say that I miss the noise, but I do. It is so quiet without you.
These thoughts/messages are for you, "my boys", Jasmine and Zach.
I want James to know that he has exceptional, unique, loyal and truly loving, caring, lifetime friends. I want to say thank you to "the boys", Jasmine and Zack. Me and Joel really enjoy you all coming around. We have such as good time. It feels like old times; everyone just enjoying themselves, laughing, and just having a great time. It's like everything is normal and good in the world.
I love you all. Thank you.
James, thank you. You are really loved. Me and your dad really enjoy seeing your friends. It makes us happy and they make us laugh.
And thank you for Jasmine. She is very special. You have a great girlfriend. She is my friend, daughter and family.
LOVE YOU BABY.
This candle was first lit on the 23rd of July 2015 and will burn for 91 years 2 months and 4 days.