I love you soooo much. I think about you every day and try to rationalize why it is better that you are gone.
I try to think that I am very lucky that I don't have to worry about you anymore. And that I am extremely lucky that I do not have to see you suffer for the rest of mine or your life.
I don't understand why GOD did this. I just pray that it was because if you did not die maybe things could have been worst.
I am trying to believe that GOD had a plan for our family, your friends and everyone we care about.
I do know that you have awesome friends. Everyone of them keep in touch to say "hi" or "how are you doing" and they even stop by for barbeques. I have always wanted friends like that and you did.
GOD blessed you with amazing friends. GOD blessed us with your amazing friends.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
Every day I think of you. Everyday a song, the weather, a nostalgic moment, a smell, and so much more, makes me think of you.
You are always on my mind
Take care.
xxxxooooo
I want you to know that I think I am doing better. I am trying to be positive and a nice person again.
I miss doing things and going away on trips with you. I really miss having you friends over. I never realized how quiet it is (I use to hate hearing the noise all night). I really miss the noise and having my house as the "hangout" house.
I am feeling better. Go figure. lol
I had the best time in Palm Desert this weekend.
I really, really, really enjoyed looking at the mountains, floating in the pool and doing nothing but eating and drinking with Mari and Mike. I hope this feeling never goes away.
I don't want to feel like a just exist anymore and I am just going through the motions of everyday living.
AGAIN, I LOVE YOU. PLEASE HAUNT ME OR SEND ME A NICE DREAM SO I CAN SEE YOU.
This candle was first lit on the 9th of June 2015 and will burn for 91 years and 21 days.