Hi baby. I still miss you so much. You were my joy in life. You made everyday a reason for living and doing things. My joy is gone and I do not know how to come back. You placed new follows two days ago. I put a fence around the candles so that the candles would not fall into to street. I don't know how to be happy anymore. My happiness always was surrounded by you because you enjoyed and embrassed everything we did. You were always with me no matter where I went your underage years and when you got older you and your friends were always at our house or camping with us. I so miss the noise in the house, I miss looking at the night skies for comets or spaceships, I miss having sushi (and asking me what you should to impress your girlfriend Jasmine) and really miss the song you were writing and played for me the day before you died.
I so miss my joy. You were my joy in life.
I love you. Sweet dreams.